Winter Turns to Spring

Well, after much deliberation, much hacking and coughing, much stress, and then sighs of relief, we have decided to postpone out wedding.

We started thinking about it the first time I got sick, not from infection but from stress. This sickness is on a vicious cycle now and I suspect mono again, which makes sense why this is the third cycle of this same illness in two or three months. Anyway, the more we talked about it, the more reasons came up that maybe December wasn't such a great plan. Yes, we really wanted a Winter Wedding, and no, we didn't see any reasons to wait, and we probably could have made it work, but in this case, we weren't willing to make the sacrifices to make it work.

For starters, stress. Stress, stress, stress. I am taking six classes and Spencer is taking five. We each have a very time demanding job, me working 30 hours and Spencer sometimes spending four or more hours for just one day on one single assignment for the rivals website. On top of which, Spencer looking for a second, more steady and stable job, which seemed really crazy trying to do that before December. Also, it's only two months away. Not only was I dealing with my stress with time, but my family's as well. They are wanting to help but always constantly bombarding me with suggestions and questions, it became so overwhelming! We just want to be able to enjoy our wedding, not stress stress stress unil it's "finally over".

Also, he has a member of his family who is also having a wedding on December 18th. Neither of us knew about the other one's wedding, so no one is to blame, it's just a horrible coincidence. We didn't want to make his family decide between the weddings, so another reason to postpone.

As aforementioned, Spencer has a job writing for the rivals website. This is a good job for him, good experience, but I personally see it more as an internship-type job, and we are lucky they are paying him at all. However, it's not enough to support himself much less the both of us. My income might but we don't like to live in the world of Maybe. What if I lost my job? Where would we be? Anyway, it was going to be an amazing feat for him to find another more stable job by December, so another sigh of relief knowing that we have until May.

Oh by the way, we have decided to postpone until May. Well, late May, possibly early June. No offense to all out there, but I want to avoid a June wedding as much as I possibly can. However... this might not be possible. Stay tuned for a more permanent date. But... don't hold your breath, we probably won't decide until it's absolutely necessary ;)

There are a lot of other reasons why we postponed, but those are the major ones that I can think of right now and I'm about to get off work in less than 5 minutes. We were going to have a Winter Wedding, and now we are going to have a Late Summer Night wedding (so we don't have to change the colors ;) and yes, I do realize it'll still be spring..)

Have a great weekend!

Bride-To-Be's Break

So, as you heard from Spence, the dress is amazing! I wish I could post pictures, but I told Spencer he couldn't see me in the dress again until the wedding. He'll have forgotten what it looks like by then, more than likely, so I'll still get to see that look on his face. You know, the groom's "look".

One thing that thrills me!: My dress has a corsette. I started talking about how if I gained weight,  the dress will go out with me. If I lost weight, it'll come in with me. The lady who was helping us told me "Don't lose any weight! You have just enough around the middle so the corsette doesn't come together too soon and throws off the whole thing. If you gain weight, eat ice cream that morning!" So I guess now I just don't gain any weight and I'll be good!So, a week or two ago, I just felt like taking a day off, I didn't want to go to work, I didn't want to do anything. I just felt so overloaded.

But I didn't listen, thinking I could do anything I ever wanted, and then everything I never wanted, all in one. Turns out, I'm not capable of all that, and my body decided to give me the well deserved break. I got really sick, starting last Sunday, with a small sore throat. Each day, it progressively got worse. It was really bad Wednesday, but I had a conference call that day that I didn't want my bosses thinking, "Oh, she wants to miss the boring call so she is calling in 'sick', of course." Like my other coworkers would do. Then Thursday, even worse, but I had a test I couldn't miss, and a rescheduled class that I usually have on Tuesdays, but we rescheduled that day. I also had kickboxing and another class. In short, I had an extra class, went to work, went to institute and meeting with the bishop for the start-of-the-engagment interview before I finally decided that I am going to die if I don't take a break. None of the medicine I was trying was working, so it was really miserable.

(That was a really confusing paragraph!...Sorry!)

Nyquil and Dayquil are my miracle workers. Then only problem is I get addicted to the Quils, so I have to make sure I take them sparingly. Turns out, though, that SLEEP and REST were the best medicines for my overworked body! Plus a little spiritual refreshment through General Conference... I think I'll be ready to take up my six classes, 3 month engagement/wedding planning, and two callings plus visiting teaching again.

Not that I took a break from all of that. On my Friday and weekend off, I still had two chapters to read, two tests to take, and a paper to write. All's well that end's well though. I think I'm ready for Monday though! As ready as I'll ever be...

Thanks for listening to the whinings of a bride-to-be. Here's to getting back on my feet again!